异国求艺·漫漫寻路

翻出一些80年代末赴美学习时的老照片。那时候去国外，主要是想多看看、多学习一些西方艺术。油画也是花了很多时间去研究的东西。

年轻的时候，总觉得只要不断学习、不断尝试，就能找到属于自己的画法。那几年里，也画过不同的题材，也尝试过各种风格和表现方法，还会给同学、路人画素描速写不断练习。

有些画自己觉得还可以，但过一段时间再看，又觉得不是自己真正想画的东西。其实也有过一段挺迷茫的时间。西方绘画有很多值得学习的地方，但学习并不意味着照着别人走。对一个画画的人来说，最难的还是慢慢找到自己的东西。

现在回头再看这些照片，已经过去这么多年了。当时的很多尝试，后来没有继续下去，但我觉得它们也没有白费。因为正是在一次次尝试和否定中，才慢慢知道自己想走什么样的路。 这些老照片，就算是留给自己的一个记录吧。

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Looking back through some old photographs from my time studying in the United States in the late 1980s.

At that time, I went abroad mainly because I wanted to see more of the world and learn more about Western art. I also spent a great deal of time studying and exploring oil painting.

When I was young, I always felt that if I kept learning and experimenting, I would eventually find my own way of painting. During those years, I worked with different subjects and tried many different styles and forms of expression. I also practiced constantly by drawing portraits and quick sketches of classmates and people I met along the way.

There were paintings that I thought turned out quite well, but when I looked at them again after some time, I would realize that they still weren’t what I truly wanted to paint. To be honest, there was also a period when I felt quite lost.

There was so much worth learning from Western painting, but learning from others didn’t mean simply following their path. For a painter, perhaps the most difficult thing is slowly discovering something that truly belongs to you.

Now, looking back at these photographs, so many years have already passed. Many of the things I tried back then were eventually left behind, but I don’t think any of those experiences were wasted.

It was through all those attempts, doubts, and moments of letting go that I gradually came to understand what kind of path I wanted to take.

These old photographs can simply be a record of that time in my life.